getting healthy ramblings

Hello hope you are doing well. I have had a weird week health wise including a nose bleed and wondering if I could actually be pregnant. I made drastic changes to my food intake (I am very much an all or nothing person as are so many addicts) moving from a very heavy intake of dairy,  gluten and sugar to more or less removing them, except replacing (most of) my white bread with brown so still gluten in that and still an amount of skimmed milk in my coffee.


I started taking a probiotic and an anti-candida supplement. Well in beautiful harmony with my healthy lifestyle thinking, my stomach swelled up like a balloon, I had terrible flu symptoms and the diverticulitis I sometimes get came on with a vengeance, making it hard to sit at my desk and be pleasant this week when I mostly wanted to lie flat in bed. Then after three days of painkillers and wanting to eat all the bad things I normally rely on so badly that I thought I would kill someone, I woke up this morning actually feeling quite good. Four pounds off.


But apart from the weight thing (I am cautious about celebrating as it is the same four pounds I gain and lose every fortnight) I just feel a bit different mentally, a bit sharper and less depressed really. This is a different feeling. I have got into a little habit of three meals of around 400 calories with some coffees and fruit as extras and definitely the eating less at night has made a big difference to how I feel in the morning. I feel like I could actually continue this particular attempt at weight loss rather than knowing deep down I will give up after a few days,which is what normally happens.


So in conclusion to this latest ramble I would say a) cutting right down on dairy, gluten and sugar has helped me a lot after the initial three day withdrawal trauma b) eating around 1400 calories a day is not starvation and can be done c) eating less at night is liberating in terms of mood lift in the morning. I am feeling that after all the procrastinating and stopping and starting and reposting and boring people with constant reaffirming, I may actually have found a regime that will get my desired 28 pounds off, or at least most of that in time for my holibobs in August. Thank you for listening! xxx

The had enough feeling

Hello hope you’re fit and well. I finally reached the had enough point with my seesawing weight and mood swings yesterday. It felt very much like the had enough point I reached with drinking, where I just got so fed up with my own behaviour around alcohol that something just flipped.


Quite a relief to get to that similar way of thinking about my enduring muffin and muffin attitude,constantly setting myself goals and not reaching them,constantly making fresh decisions and not sticking with them,constantly feeling I was letting myself down. I wrote down endless plans and then promptly ignored them. The only thing that has kept me relentlessly working on my thought processes is the faint hope that I have not completely given up on my health and wellbeing and have something very important to do which never quite goes away.


So I got really peed off and the switch just went over on to ‘on’. I realise the regime of quitting dairy, sugar and gluten for a period (not permanent) is really not ideal for a lot of people, but for me reading about the effect these substances may be having on my health has given me a kick really. So yesterday I tried it (just for a day, thinking, like with alcohol) and this morning I feel so very different already. I also take on board the advice about scales and chucking them out, very sensible I know, but personally I need the scales as accountability, and when I weighed myself this morning I was amazed at the results even just after a day.


The fact that I had such dramatic side effects and super hard cravings yesterday with not having those three things tells me there is maybe an issue there. Talking to others about food intolerances/sensitivities also suggests to me there may be something in it. So will be persevering and if I carry on feeling like this after just a day I will be a happy bunny. Not recommending this as an answer by the way, I know you know that, but for me it is a journey I am going to try, since nothing else has worked and the had enough feeling is strong right now xxx

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