The had enough feeling

Hello hope you’re fit and well. I finally reached the had enough point with my seesawing weight and mood swings yesterday. It felt very much like the had enough point I reached with drinking, where I just got so fed up with my own behaviour around alcohol that something just flipped.

 

Quite a relief to get to that similar way of thinking about my enduring muffin and muffin attitude,constantly setting myself goals and not reaching them,constantly making fresh decisions and not sticking with them,constantly feeling I was letting myself down. I wrote down endless plans and then promptly ignored them. The only thing that has kept me relentlessly working on my thought processes is the faint hope that I have not completely given up on my health and wellbeing and have something very important to do which never quite goes away.

 

So I got really peed off and the switch just went over on to ‘on’. I realise the regime of quitting dairy, sugar and gluten for a period (not permanent) is really not ideal for a lot of people, but for me reading about the effect these substances may be having on my health has given me a kick really. So yesterday I tried it (just for a day, thinking, like with alcohol) and this morning I feel so very different already. I also take on board the advice about scales and chucking them out, very sensible I know, but personally I need the scales as accountability, and when I weighed myself this morning I was amazed at the results even just after a day.

 

The fact that I had such dramatic side effects and super hard cravings yesterday with not having those three things tells me there is maybe an issue there. Talking to others about food intolerances/sensitivities also suggests to me there may be something in it. So will be persevering and if I carry on feeling like this after just a day I will be a happy bunny. Not recommending this as an answer by the way, I know you know that, but for me it is a journey I am going to try, since nothing else has worked and the had enough feeling is strong right now xxx

 ps, I saw this advertised by Future Learn, a brilliant free online distnace learning platform. Idid their Drugs and Addiction course and it was incredibly informative, so looking forward to this programme too.

Demystify the complex and conflicting messages we hear about diet, health and lifestyle today, with this free online course.
futurelearn.com|By FutureLearn

Published by

Binki

SWAN is a new friendship and support network for people who choose to live without alcohol. Everyone is welcome.

2 thoughts on “The had enough feeling”

  1. Hi Binki, it’s lovely to hear you sounding so chipper this morning. As you know I’m at a similar stage with sobriety and, you like, I now have a sugar issue to contend with. I absolutely know the ‘had enough’ feeling you mention. I too am so sick of not following thtough with my plans and best intentions. I feel like I need to flick the switch in my mind and have decided to try hypnotherapy in order to do this. It is a mind thing with me. When I get into the right mindset I will do it. Just don’t know how to create the conditions. I’m adopting the ‘if you keep doing what you’ve always done, you’ll keep getting what you’ve always got’ mantra and decided to try a different tack and see if it can help. Good luck with this, you sound like you’ve got fire in your belly to do it!

    Ps – I read yesterday’s post and just wanted you to know I have the odd wobble too but we have come so far why would we ever risk all that we’ve achieved. The odd drinking thoughts drifts in to our minds occasionally , but we know too much for them to ever get a hold so they disappear quickly don’t they? You are an inspiring and brave sober woman, stay proud, true and strong. Xxx

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Great to hear from you Cyclesal and yes we are very much operating along similar lines! Funny how this sobriety thing seems to go in stages isn’t it? Thank you for your lovely comments,I feel the same about you xxx

      Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s